Prayers Needed

                                                 
I have to be honest, I am feeling a little defeated today. Not the usual cheery, chipper person I normally am. I know I have kind of shared my unhappiness with my job but I am just feeling like lately it is coming to a head.

I just desperately want to like my job, whatever it may be.

The truth is, I knew this job was not the right fit as soon as I started. I noticed that everybody here was miserable in more ways than one and that there was no "team" aspect. They were constantly at each other's throats but I just thought that the pettiness wouldn't affect me. I was wrong! Once the newness wore off, the fangs came out and I had to grow a thick shell real quick. In the process, I feel like I have lost some of my "sparkle and shine". I have worked so hard and have been given more responsibility than ever before only to be constantly told and treated like I am nothing. It has inevitably taken its toll.

Bottom line is, I just want to be happy and I am not afraid of hard work but there has to be some kind of gain or appreciation to feel like it is worth it to continue on. I come to you today knowing that the only thing I can do at this point is to continue to pray about it and I just ask for your prayers as well. I need it more than ever right now.